I had someone at work tell me they wished they could eat like I do when I said I was having a hard time eating lately. I realized I was getting about 400 calories/day for the last week and running about 4-5 miles 5x/week. She called it willpower or something - I panicked a little.
Here's what goes on in my mind:
"I'm hungry...really? Are you sure you're hungry? Maybe you just want some water or coffee - try that first" So I get some water or coffee.
"I'd still like something to eat - okay what did I eat today? I had a protein shake for breakfast - that's...118 +35 calories...did I measure that right? I'll add 10 more calories to be sure - 163 calories. Okay...so I can eat something..." (Heads to grocery store to find something.)
"I can eat veggies...they're safe...okay, this one has 35 calories per 3/4 cup...this one has 30...I'll go with the 30 calorie option. What about something to go with it - Garlic and dill are safe, salsa, sourkrout in moderation...fish? 100 calories per 80g...no, that's a lot. What about sushi - no that takes rice...I'll pass. What about bananas? No - they're 80-120 calories per banana...Almond milk...that's 40 calories - is there any of the 35 calorie stuff? No...Okay...40 will do - I'll just drink less. OOH vegan cheese - that's 65 calories per 30g. How many servings is in a block? 7.5 - okay 8...umm...can I cut that in half again? What if I binge? I'll pass"
Every. single. meal.
I KNOW it's unhealthy to think of food as safe/unsafe - especially veggies and fruit...but it's what I do. I don't know when it started or why I do it. I don't know why I can't seem to stop...I know it's not healthy but I do it.
I'm getting better at eating more - that's a start
Today was a vegan protein shake for breakfast (165 calories)
Veggies - 90 calories
Garlic and Dill (fresh) 10 calories
Salsa - 30 calories
Sourkrout - 10 calories
Tomato - 20 calories
Mushroom - 5 calories
Watermelon - 90 calories
Today today - 420.
Okay - so I suck at this. I'll grab another protein shake after my run tonight...that sounds like a good start. Tomorrow, I attempt to eat three more balanced meals. This whole eating healthy thing is harder than it looks - only for me it's not because I eat too much...urgh!