In 2 weeks, I've gained almost 10lbs. Now I blame
All that crap I told anyone about being healthy and vegan last year - it was crap. I stopped eating. I kept to about 500 calories every day and made myself throw up if I ate anything that made me panic. I cried almost every night because I was never going to be thin enough and thin enough meant "good enough". I was warped and I was scared...I finally snapped out of it but I'm not doing that again. I'm still dealing with the damage that was done.
But I'm not feeling good at this weight either. So I made a conscious decision today to eat healthy. Minimum of 1200 calories. Get out and walk every day for at least 30 minutes or until I hit 5 hrs per week. Every week until Christmas. I get to eat whatever I want (veggie or not) on Friday at Suppertime (This includes a couple beers if I really want to). This does not mean Friday goes into Saturday, into Sunday etc...
So here's the thing. I need to learn how to develop a happy medium. And this time, I'm taking it slowly.
And today, I passed on the cupcake because I just didn't feel like it. Score 1 for me!
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