tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29014019794855474252024-02-22T05:52:42.043-04:00One Two ManyThe worst person to hurt is a writer because we will always do
what we do best and everyone will know your dirty
little secrets...even the one's you don't actually have.
Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.comBlogger333125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-61515417363079918132013-04-14T01:11:00.000-03:002013-04-14T01:11:11.671-03:00I don't want him...but....<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">I'm absolutely positive I missed the memo on sharing as a child. The "Once I put down a toy, it's still mine" mentality has spilled over to my grown-up life lately. No, I don't want to be in a relationship with him...but that doesn't mean I want anyone else to have him either.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">Take Jon for instance. I don't want him anymore. He smokes (ew), he's overweight and unhealthy (yes, I'm picky), he eats disgusting food (packaged everything - it's called a veggie, try it!). He's ignorant of all current events unless they involve an ATV or some reality television show and his spelling is equal to that of myself...in grade three.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">But he let it slip that he had a girlfriend and I'm assuming it's the girl (I think it was a girl) that I saw him in the bar with last week. Here's the thing, there's a term I use called "Saint John Special". In all my travels, there is a special group that exists in SJ that just cannot be explained. Maybe it's the water/air combo combined with some syndrome? I don't know - but it's SJ Special. I'd use that term on this chick...</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">So now I'm thinking - why did I date Jon? Oh right, because he was a self-confidence booster. I was feeling low after the whole D-explosion fiasco + Justin being on campus now...so I dated him.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">I have a lot to learn, don't I? </span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">Hindsight is most definitely 20/20 but really...why didn't my mom send me to pre-school? I could have benefited from a few lessons in "Once you disgard the toy, someone else can pick it up</span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;">Thanks Mommy!</span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;"><br />Thankfully, I did what every smart girl does. I went out, got blottered drunk and went home with a friend(ish) only to wake up in the morning going "that was really dumb"...let's not do that again - and threw myself into an exercise routine that would make a body builder cry. <br />
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The best way to get over a man is to make his jaw drop and him fantasize over your ass as you leave him in the dirt.<br />
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My grad pics are going to be HOT! <br />
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Salut blog-world!<br />
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Sammi<br />
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-size: large;"></span>Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-77077838997623978352013-04-13T02:09:00.003-03:002013-04-13T02:09:58.155-03:00Crack Dealers and Politicians <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I'm a Grand Mananer - I'm from a small Island that is absolutely beautiful. I went to school there, graduated from there, worked there...had my first kiss with my (ex-ish) hubby at that very lighthouse. <br />
<br />I've also learned a little about politics from Grand Mananers...mostly the comparison of Ronnie Ross (Alleged crack dealer on Grand Manan found guilty a few years later of - insert fake surprise here - dealing drugs) and Premier David Alward.<br />
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Here goes:<br />
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1) They both screwed Grand Manan over: <br />
Ronnie was being a creepy jerk who brought hard drugs to the island, threatened Islanders and was just dangerous to our way of life.<br />
Alward is continuously being an arrogant jerk who keeps cutting island resources (such as our ferry service) even though he was the blow-hard who promised a free ferry.<br />
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2) They both lie.<br />
Ronnie: "I don't sell drugs" (within 3 years was in jail for dealing drugs)<br />
Alward: "Free Ferry! No cuts to services" and now we have no 4th trip and no provincial, top-ranked park as well as the loss of 7-10 jobs.<br />
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3) The island banded together against them.<br />
Ronnie: House mysteriously burnt down in a blaze of epic glory...I'm personally still convinced he burned his own house down but anyways...<br />
Alward: Pretty sure he won't burn his own house down...BUT petitions have already gone around and Grand Mananer's are already contacting the media and planning rallies (and trips to Fredericton if necessary) to get their ferry/anchorage back.<br />
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Politicians and crack dealers should probably become best buddies because realistically, they're cut from the same cloth. Some like Ronnie cause problems for society from the bottom up and some, like David do the same thing from the top down...either way, it's always the people caught in the middle that have to continuously fight for their rights.<br />
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[Oh, and Alward must be on some sort of drug to even remotely assume that Grand Mananer's are going to let this go. Come on...we let a guy burn his own house down...or something like that....]<br />
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Note: Alward probably doesn't do drugs. This is the rant of Sam to be covered by Freedom of Expression within my Canadian rights and should not be taken as news as I am slightly exhausted at 2am. Consider me interesting but not reliable. If you'd like to ask Alward for a pee sample though, ask him directly at <a href="https://www.facebook.com/pages/Premier-David-Alward-NB/182054388475751?ref=ts&fref=ts" target="_blank">"I am a ManBaby.com"</a> (aka his Facebook page). <br />
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Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-51608071658232240612013-04-10T20:27:00.001-03:002013-04-10T20:29:52.584-03:00Deal With It<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;">Looking back on last night, I've realized that I'm still a little messed u<span style="font-size: small;">p. I feel <span style="font-size: small;">great <span style="font-size: small;">today to be honest<span style="font-size: small;"> as if nothing happened<span style="font-size: small;">. I don't feel panicky or scared or anything - I feel strong, in control and confi<span style="font-size: small;">den<span style="font-size: small;">t. Why? I haven't eaten anything today and am back on the liquid diet. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Thankfully, I've realized a few things. When I l<span style="font-size: small;">eft Justin,<span style="font-size: small;"> I <span style="font-size: small;">felt totally out of control...the same way I felt when I was 1<span style="font-size: small;">6 and first <span style="font-size: small;">started throwing up<span style="font-size: small;"> my meals. Everything was<span style="font-size: small;"> just crazy<span style="font-size: small;">, my life was crazy...I <span style="font-size: small;">had no idea what I was going to do<span style="font-size: small;">..<span style="font-size: small;">.pretty much like how I feel right now. This is the first time<span style="font-size: small;"> since I left Justin that I won't be a 'student<span style="font-size: small;">'<span style="font-size: small;">, a <span style="font-size: small;">primary role in my life. I<span style="font-size: small;">'m <span style="font-size: small;">constantly reminded that I'm smart, I <span style="font-size: small;">have a schedule, I get away with a LOT because...well, I'm a student. Now<span style="font-size: small;"> I have to be the grown<span style="font-size: small;"> up again...and I'll be do<span style="font-size: small;">ing it alone. This will be the first time I <span style="font-size: small;">will be living on my own and that<span style="font-size: small;">'s scary....</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So instead of just accepting that I'm scared<span style="font-size: small;">...I <span style="font-size: small;">restrict my food intake and I throw up if I lose control. And right now, I'm just going to handle it<span style="font-size: small;">...try not to throw up, <span style="font-size: small;">stay on my 10 day fast because, let<span style="font-size: small;">'s be honest, I'm a mess at the moment<span style="font-size: small;">...and I'll deal with it after exams are over.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">For the record, THIS ISN'T HEALTHY!<span style="font-size: small;"> If I could go back to being 16-<span style="font-size: small;">year old me, I'd say "don't start" but know<span style="font-size: small;">ing me, I wouldn't listen to myself...</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So the goo<span style="font-size: small;">d news is, I know this sucks - I know it's unhealthy and I know I need to work o<span style="font-size: small;">n it. The bad news is, I'<span style="font-size: small;">m waiting to deal with it. Until then, you're stuck <span style="font-size: small;">reading a<span style="font-size: small;">bout a blogger <span style="font-size: small;">with food issues (and yet, cannot get thi<span style="font-size: small;">n!). </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">~Deal with it~ <3</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-11046679723626175802013-04-10T01:19:00.001-03:002013-04-10T01:19:11.429-03:00Panic and PukingAs my blog title says, I've had a wicked time lately with food. Today I ate a scary amount of food for me:<br />
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Breakfast - watermelon - 125 calories<br />
eggs - 60 calories<br />
sourkrout - 10 calories<br />
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Total - 195<br />
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Dinner<br />
<br />1 Banana 120 calories<br />
1 Pear 103 calories<br />
1 Luna bar 230<br />
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Total 453 + 195 = 648<br />
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Supper<br />
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(total binge = scary)<br />
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eggs = 90<br />
Tomato = 35<br />
Cuke = 10<br />
Bread = 320<br />
Chocolate = 240<br />
Butter/Coconut Oil = 450 ( - no idea)<br />
Potato x3 = 369<br />
Salsa = 25 <br />
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Seriously, WHAT was I thinking? I just ate and ate and ate...Total calories today 2817.<br />
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When I actually realized what I was doing, I ran downstairs and just started throwing up - great - because that makes the day SO much better. <br />
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Okay...I slightly lost my cool for a bit - I was/am a mess in part because I broke so far away from my diet for foods that I don't even WANT and I panicked so I threw it up. Okay, new plan...stop screwing up. Or better yet, start addressing the fact that I'm terrified about being a graduate and feeling out of control and scared and this makes me feel like I'm in control...<br />
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Exercise + daily loss.<br />
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-1200 calories (daily loss)<br />
-515 calories (walk/run late at night out of panic)<br />
-300 calories (work/walking)<br />
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Total burned - 2015<br />
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Total for the day +802.<br />
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F.M.L.<br />
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I'm starting the mastercleanse again tomorrow...I really can't handle freaking out this badly at the moment...I hate hate hate making myself throw up...it's gross and yucky...and just...blah. <br />
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Anyways, tomorrow (or technically today) is a new day...start healthy, positive and start over. <br />
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<br />Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-78040436126596429702013-04-08T17:52:00.000-03:002013-04-08T17:52:04.446-03:00Food Phobias<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;">I had someone at work t<span style="font-size: small;">ell me they wished they could <span style="font-size: small;">eat like I do <span style="font-size: small;">when I said I was having a hard time eating lately.<span style="font-size: small;"> I<span style="font-size: small;"> realized I was getting <span style="font-size: small;">about 400 calories/day for <span style="font-size: small;">the last week and <span style="font-size: small;">running about <span style="font-size: small;">4-5 miles <span style="font-size: small;">5<span style="font-size: small;">x/week. She called it <span style="font-size: small;">willpower or somethin<span style="font-size: small;">g - I<span style="font-size: small;"> panicked a little.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Here's what goes <span style="font-size: small;">on in my <span style="font-size: small;">mind<span style="font-size: small;">:</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"I'm hungry...really? Are you sure you're hungry? Maybe you just want some water or coffee - try that first" <span style="font-size: small;">So I get some water or coffee.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"I<span style="font-size: small;">'d still like something to eat - okay what did I <span style="font-size: small;">eat today?<span style="font-size: small;"> I had a protein shake for breakfast - that's<span style="font-size: small;">...118 +35 cal<span style="font-size: small;">ori<span style="font-size: small;">es...did I measure that right<span style="font-size: small;">? I'll add 10 more calories to be sure - 163 calories. Okay...so I ca<span style="font-size: small;">n eat something...<span style="font-size: small;">"<span style="font-size: small;"> (<span style="font-size: small;">Heads to grocery store to find so<span style="font-size: small;">mething.)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"I can eat <span style="font-size: small;">veggies...they're safe...<span style="font-size: small;">okay<span style="font-size: small;">, <span style="font-size: small;">this one has 35 calories per 3/4 cup<span style="font-size: small;">...this one has 30...I'll go with the 30 calo<span style="font-size: small;">rie <span style="font-size: small;">option. What about<span style="font-size: small;"> something to go with it - Garlic and dill are safe<span style="font-size: small;">, salsa, sour<span style="font-size: small;">krout in moderation...fish? 100 cal<span style="font-size: small;">ories per 80<span style="font-size: small;">g...no<span style="font-size: small;">, that's a l<span style="font-size: small;">ot. What about sushi - no that takes rice<span style="font-size: small;">...I'll pass. What about<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">bananas? No<span style="font-size: small;"> - they're <span style="font-size: small;">80-120 calories per banana..<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;">Almond milk...that's 40 calories - is there any of the 3<span style="font-size: small;">5 calorie stuff? No...Okay...<span style="font-size: small;">40 will do - I'll <span style="font-size: small;">just drink less. <span style="font-size: small;">OOH vegan cheese - that's 65 calories per 3<span style="font-size: small;">0<span style="font-size: small;">g<span style="font-size: small;">. How many servings i<span style="font-size: small;">s in a block? 7.5 - okay <span style="font-size: small;">8...umm...can I cut that in half again? What if I binge? I'll pass"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Every<span style="font-size: small;">. single. meal. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I KNOW it's un<span style="font-size: small;">healthy to <span style="font-size: small;">think<span style="font-size: small;"> of food as safe/unsa<span style="font-size: small;">fe - especially veggies and fruit...but it's what I do. I don't know wh<span style="font-size: small;">en it started or why I do it. I don't know why I can't s<span style="font-size: small;">eem to stop...I know it's not healthy but I do it. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'm getting better at <span style="font-size: small;">eating more - that's a start</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Today was a vegan <span style="font-size: small;">p<span style="font-size: small;">rot<span style="font-size: small;">ein shake for breakfast (165 calories)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Supper was:</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Veggies -<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">90<span style="font-size: small;"> calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Garlic and <span style="font-size: small;">Dill (fr<span style="font-size: small;">esh) 10 calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Salsa <span style="font-size: small;">- 30 calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sour<span style="font-size: small;">krout <span style="font-size: small;">- 10 calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Tomato<span style="font-size: small;"> - 20 calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Mushroom - 5 calories </span> </span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Watermelon <span style="font-size: small;">- 90 calories</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> (255<span style="font-size: small;">)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Today today - 420.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #20124d;">So<span style="font-size: large;">, I broke down and bought a scale <span style="font-size: large;">tonight<span style="font-size: large;"> (measuring it against my old scale which is <span style="font-size: large;">5lbs <span style="font-size: large;">hea<span style="font-size: large;">vier than what it should b<span style="font-size: large;">e)<span style="font-size: large;">. The o<span style="font-size: large;">ther bon<span style="font-size: large;">us <span style="font-size: large;">is that this scale is apparently very accur<span style="font-size: large;">ate which is nice - and it measure<span style="font-size: large;">s by the 10th of a <span style="font-size: large;">l<span style="font-size: large;">b<span style="font-size: large;"> so I can see mini differences.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Turns out that what I<span style="font-size: large;"> thought I weigh<span style="font-size: large;">ed was actually off by about 6lbs. <span style="font-size: large;">I'm pretty happy about that<span style="font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">So <span style="font-size: large;">wish me luck and<span style="font-size: large;"> I'll keep writing<span style="font-size: large;">. Hopeful<span style="font-size: large;">ly this time I can actually keep the weight off and<span style="font-size: large;"> lose it healthi<span style="font-size: large;">ly! Fingers crossed for goals! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-53355804201452606602013-04-02T01:51:00.001-03:002013-04-02T01:51:31.241-03:00Running Pros and Cons<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;">So you want to take up running? Good for you...now run away! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;">Just kidding! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;">Below is a list of things I've experienced because of running..the good, the bad and the ugly.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>The Good</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Weight Loss and Toning Up </b>- always a bonus when you're ass is perkier than a Kardashian and your arms don't threaten to catch the breeze and fly you away<b>.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>You're a runner now - </b>You're in that elite group of people who sail down the sidewalk and make other people jealous (or assume you're batcrap crazy). </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>You'll meet new people</b> - Runners are a friendly bunch...they like to talk about running, help others out and dish about the latest shoes, technology, magazine etc. Listen and learn, young doodlebug. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>You get to eat...a LOT!</b> I have never eaten more than when I'm running. Protein shakes, eggs, pasta, more pasta...carbs and protein are your friend. Love them. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>You will feel better</b> - Two words: Runners High. It's like drugs only better. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Stress relief</b> - If you're not having regular sex, running is the next best thing. This just makes me seem sad. Running releases a bunch of brain chemicals that just feels good. Try it. You'll like it. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>The Bad</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Overtraining, pain, more pain</b> - Show me a runner who isn't sore and I'll show you a walker. You'll be pushing yourself if new...and there will be some (mild) pain. If it really hurts, don't push it...but your muscles will feel used. Overtraining just sucks - you think you can do more, you do more and you hurt yourself...do more...only slowly.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Shoes = money</b> - Running is pretty cheap. You + pavement = running. Running shoes = not cheap. Expect to spend between 60-150 on shoes. Do NOT go cheap or your feet, legs, tooshie, hips, shoulders, neck...basically your entire body...will be angry. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Downers</b> - These are people who see you feeling better, eating wiser, focusing on running and say "oh you're getting too skinny" or "Isn't that dangerous?" or some other stupid thing. The worst are the "outdoers". You ran 5miles...they did 6. You broke your personal best - they doubled it. They can't be happy for you mostly because they're miserable with themselves. Attempt to ignore them because they are just downers. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Food </b>- You aren't eating the cake, the chips, the cookies or the pop because your body is training to run...you know it'll make you feel icky but that cake looks so good. Eat it...it kinda doesn't feel as good in your stomach anymore...try a dried apple snack.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Laundry</b> - I sweat. A lot. I soak through my clothing, my hats, and usually get sweat burning in my eyes. My shoes are damp, I look like I peed myself...seriously, it's gross. I do laundry almost every day because stinky socks...not fun. Stinky socks, pants, shirt, and jacket is just rank!</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Feet</b> - Your feet will probably be gross. I just lost a toenail from a simple fall, bruise, and gone. There was some bleeding...it was gross. I also have callouses the size of small barnyard animals and dry skin all the time. Welcome to the world of running. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Throwing up</b> - I am a pretty easy upchucker so some people don't have this problem. Running in the summer can lead to overheating which can easily lead to woofing ones cookies...in the street...during traffic. Yay. Such a sexy moment.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Dogs and other animals </b>- I like my face. I'd like to keep it. Watch for dogs.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><b>Feeling out of shape - </b>If you make the mistake of judging yourself according to others, you're going to feel like the food you just threw up. Watch yourself...make your own goals...don't try to be like someone else otherwise, you'll just be let down. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: #351c75;"><br /></span></span>Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-85799525982879810112013-03-30T23:23:00.000-03:002013-03-30T23:23:17.153-03:00Four Words from a Past Memory"How's your easter going"....That's the text I got from "1" this evening. 1 is the one guy I regret pushing away from me...and quite out of the blue I get this text. Let's just say, more words and memories went through my head in a minute than the entire day.<br />
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If I could apologize for my words and actions, it would be the most heartfelt apology this ice queen could muster. I'm sorry that I got scared. I realized that I could in fact feel things for a guy again and I wanted that...but that scared me. He broke down my 'ice queen' heart - the one that allowed me to hurt anyone, be careless with people's emotions, and walk away perfectly in control and unfeeling. That was terrifying and admittedly, I handled it horribly. I pulled away fast, I intentionally hurt him, I blamed him for my own fears, and didn't even realize I was doing it. <br />
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I'm sorry that I didn't realize it because I lost a pretty amazing friend...someone I could tell anything to and know it would stay hidden away. I could get his advice on anything from my fashion choice to school. And we had fun.<br />
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I sort of hope he still reads my blog because I miss him. Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-62106448384410759422013-03-29T19:41:00.002-03:002013-03-29T19:41:53.491-03:00-16.8lbs and once again eating real food.<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;">I went for a run thinking I'<span style="font-size: small;">d be <span style="font-size: small;">okay a few days <span style="font-size: small;">ago. I'm not entirely sure why<span style="font-size: small;">...I hadn't eaten for 5 days<span style="font-size: small;"> and <span style="font-size: small;">hardly drank <span style="font-size: small;">any of the lemonaid<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">I was supposed to drink on my quick weight loss diet. Anyways, I felt miserable and so, I ate something. <span style="font-size: small;">Yep, I made soup. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Now, some would call this a failure - <span style="font-size: small;">I read one blog post about h<span style="font-size: small;">ow I was<span style="font-size: small;">, i<span style="font-size: small;">n fac<span style="font-size: small;">t<span style="font-size: small;">, a failure and should<span style="font-size: small;">n't be proud of myself for quitting this <span style="font-size: small;">"c<span style="font-size: small;">leanse" (</span>fa<span style="font-size: small;">d diet that I had no intentions of maintaining for any amount of time).<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">My res<span style="font-size: small;">ponse was an eloquent<span style="font-size: small;"> "Screw you<span style="font-size: small;">. Go eat <span style="font-size: small;">something. <span style="font-size: small;">You're being nasty from being HUNGRY!"<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I lost <span style="font-size: small;">about <span style="font-size: small;">8<span style="font-size: small;">lbs on the diet <span style="font-size: small;">(WOOT!) but <span style="font-size: small;">more than that, I <span style="font-size: small;">restarted myself on<span style="font-size: small;"> a very clean, healthy eating program. I'm back to vegetarian <span style="font-size: small;">(except seafood<span style="font-size: small;"> right now as I'm on a salmon/calamari <span style="font-size: small;">kick</span>)<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;"> I've only b<span style="font-size: small;">een eating for two days and <span style="font-size: small;">have <span style="font-size: small;">FINALLY weaned myself off the desire to sna<span style="font-size: small;">ck while doing homework. So far, so good.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">That being said, by day five I had reco<span style="font-size: small;">gnized th<span style="font-size: small;">at this <span style="font-size: small;">was something <span style="font-size: small;">that could lea<span style="font-size: small;">d me <span style="font-size: small;">back to that really dark place I was <span style="font-size: small;">in a couple summers ago. Yes, I was thin...I was also <span style="font-size: small;">qui<span style="font-size: small;">te </span></span>sick<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">. </span>So <span style="font-size: small;">please, if you feel you may have any sort of disordered eating<span style="font-size: small;">, don't do this. T<span style="font-size: small;">his is the first time I recognized it and decided t<span style="font-size: small;">o eat something...even if I ga<span style="font-size: small;">ined an o<span style="font-size: small;">un<span style="font-size: small;">ce<span style="font-size: small;"> or two.<span style="font-size: small;"> I made a huge pot of calamari, roast<span style="font-size: small;">ed red pepper and tomato st<span style="font-size: small;">ew<span style="font-size: small;"> (yum)<span style="font-size: small;">, strawberries and cele<span style="font-size: small;">ry</span> and bought vegan protein pow<span style="font-size: small;">der (kind of gritty but great <span style="font-size: small;">fla<span style="font-size: small;">vour). </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And g<span style="font-size: small;">uess what? I<span style="font-size: small;">'ve<span style="font-size: small;"> still lost weight! So far, since I <span style="font-size: small;">went gluten free<span style="font-size: small;"> I've lost <span style="font-size: small;">16.8lbs. I'<span style="font-size: small;">m still<span style="font-size: small;"> planning to lose a significant amount of weight before <span style="font-size: small;">Guatemala<span style="font-size: small;">. I've got another<span style="font-size: small;"> 28.2<span style="font-size: small;">lbs until I hit my goal weight.<span style="font-size: small;"> Using <span style="font-size: small;">the NOOM app, I'm on schedule for July 6th<span style="font-size: small;"> if I lose 2lbs<span style="font-size: small;">/week<span style="font-size: small;">.</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Right now, I have <span style="font-size: small;">a really cute (and cling<span style="font-size: small;">y) dress to we<span style="font-size: small;">ar in exactly 7 days (and graduati<span style="font-size: small;">on on May 31st)</span> so I'm working out a little harder<span style="font-size: small;"> and yes, eating a little less<span style="font-size: small;">. I'm pounding back <span style="font-size: small;">water - no pop, no juice<span style="font-size: small;">. I'm drinking less than<span style="font-size: small;"> 3 cups of coffee daily (usually try to limit it <span style="font-size: small;">to just one)<span style="font-size: small;">. I eat breakfast<span style="font-size: small;"> (protein shakes)<span style="font-size: small;"> every day<span style="font-size: small;"> and try to eat a sna<span style="font-size: small;">ck before bed <span style="font-size: small;">that is about 1<span style="font-size: small;">50 calories.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Weight loss isn't<span style="font-size: small;"> easy<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">- </span></span>Gaining weight is. Doing nothing <span style="font-size: small;">about it is also really easy.<span style="font-size: small;"> Deciding to be healthy<span style="font-size: small;"> is a choice.<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">It doesn't take fancy gadge<span style="font-size: small;">ts <span style="font-size: small;">or expensive food - it <span style="font-size: small;">mean<span style="font-size: small;">s changing your mindse<span style="font-size: small;">t and deciding that bei<span style="font-size: small;">ng <span style="font-size: small;">he<span style="font-size: small;">althy is better. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">For me, it's about getting<span style="font-size: small;"> down that final 28lbs<span style="font-size: small;"> and then <span style="font-size: small;">learning to be happy at t<span style="font-size: small;">hat weight.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> The first part I can do easily enough - I have a lot of willpower...the second p<span style="font-size: small;">art...well, more to come<span style="font-size: small;"> on that later. </span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-70998463672441995522013-03-27T17:55:00.003-03:002013-03-27T17:55:42.711-03:00Day 5 MasterCleanse<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;">It's half<span style="font-size: large;">way ov<span style="font-size: large;">er. Whoever says this <span style="font-size: large;">maste<span style="font-size: large;">r<span style="font-size: large;">cleanse <span style="font-size: large;">cleanse </span>is fun or <span style="font-size: large;">enlightening is full of <span style="font-size: large;">crap.<span style="font-size: large;"> Well, no they aren't full of <span style="font-size: large;">crap because <span style="font-size: large;">they've pooped it all out from the laxative tea <span style="font-size: large;">one needs to drink.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I'm hungry<span style="font-size: large;">. I'm grumpy. I'm an angry<span style="font-size: large;"> individual at the moment. I want pizza, hot dogs, steak, sausage,<span style="font-size: large;"> hamburgers, sandwiches...</span><span style="font-size: large;">basically all the <span style="font-size: large;">foods <span style="font-size: large;">I don't (or can't) eat. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">The <span style="font-size: large;">good thing about all th<span style="font-size: large;">is is that I'm using this diet to lose w<span style="font-size: large;">eight. I<span style="font-size: large;">'m veget<span style="font-size: large;">ar<span style="font-size: large;">i<span style="font-size: large;">an<span style="font-size: large;">, I <span style="font-size: large;">am gluten and dairy free<span style="font-size: large;">, and I<span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">exercise 4-6 times a week<span style="font-size: large;"> so I don't really bother with <span style="font-size: large;">cleanses.<span style="font-size: large;"> The problem is that </span>I <span style="font-size: large;">am feeling a little<span style="font-size: large;"> poofy lately</span> <span style="font-size: large;">because of the gluten<span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">weight gain. Try about 20lbs in a month. It suck<span style="font-size: large;">ed!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">So <span style="font-size: large;">yes, <span style="font-size: large;">this isn't a healthy diet. If you think it is, go t<span style="font-size: large;">alk to a <span style="font-size: large;">nutritionist. <span style="font-size: large;">If you're desperate to lose some weight<span style="font-size: large;"> before an event, try <span style="font-size: large;">the Mastercleanse.<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Weight loss to date<span style="font-size: large;">: 7.5lbs<span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">in 5</span> days. </span> </span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-44400403589364656572013-03-26T00:28:00.001-03:002013-03-26T00:28:55.817-03:00Day 3 of Liquid DietI do not advocate crash diets but I also understand that we all have body insecurities. I might have a few more than some but after gaining a ton of weight (okay, 30lbs) mostly from allergies.<br />
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To put it into perspective, I gained about 25 lbs packed within 6 weeks which is almost impossible for what I was eating...I ate spinach salads for three days and STILL gained weight. It was so frustrating to lose my body while attempting to be healthy, eating right, exercising...so when I found out there was something wrong with me, it was a total relief. <br />
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Over the first few days of going gluten/dairy free, I gained weight because I was hungry all the time! It was crazy - I couldn't really eat enough...turns out that's what happens when your vitamins are low. I was void of a lot of nutrition - so my body was hungry. After I regulated my vitamins and minerals, I had lost about ten pounds. <br />
<br />Since I have to have photos taken on the 4th, I wanted to slim down a little bit..quickly. I could say I'm on a 'cleanse'. I could say this is a 'lifestyle' but it's really not - it's a crash diet. I want to feel better so 10 days of liquids...well it's worth it. <br />
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Currently, I'm getting between 600-1200 calories/daily and today is day four.<br />
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Day 1 -1lb<br />
Day 2 -1.2lbs (down 2.2lbs)<br />
Day 3 -2.2lbs (down 4.4lbs)<br />
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Realistically, I know I'll probably gain the weight back but I also plan to modify my eating habits and keep running (in a healthy manner). <br />
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So I'm on day 4/10. Here goes. Hello MasterCleanse, I have such a love/hate relationship with you.<br />
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Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-20012054042543159922013-03-25T17:04:00.002-03:002013-03-25T17:04:57.362-03:00My letter to Playtex To whom it may concern;<br /><br />I would consider myself to be an
educated, liberal female who enjoys the equality given to me by past
feminists fighting for their human rights. To see my genitalia be
referred to as a 'beaver' - that is, a large semi-aquatic rodent, is
disrespectful and degrading.<br /><br />To assume that the advertisers of
such a disgusting campaign would assume that tacking on "for men as
well" is actually making Fresh & Sexy unisex, is an insult to my
intelligence. The ad was placed on my Facebook newsfeed. It's been
found in numerous female magazines but not in male magazines. The 'for
men too' is an afterthought to save your marketing team from being
accused of considering the vulva is unclean, something men have been
doing for centuries.<br /><br />Furthermore, to hear an advertising slogan
say "A clean pecker always taps it" or "A clean rod always reels 'em in"
really plays into 'rape culture'. Provided a consumer uses this
product, they will "always" be sexually gratified. After the
Steubenville incident, I would think marketing companies would be far
more careful of such implications to even be considered an accessory to
accepting rape culture.<br /><br />I do not find this advertisement amusing
nor do I find it acceptable. Women have been told for centuries that
their bodies are dirty because we have a self-cleaning vagina and we
menstruate. Neither of these functions are filthy and to consider them
as such is degrading and unnatural. To attempt to tell men that they are
also dirty without this product is just adding to the problem. It
doesn't equalize the genders: it only degrades both. <br /><br />Until an
apology is issued, I will be refusing to buy any Playtex product. I
will also be active in ensuring my university and my friends do the
same.<br /><br />Sincerely,<br /><br />Samantha Tinker Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-68285165660276155682013-03-25T09:02:00.000-03:002013-03-25T09:03:25.355-03:00Be Dirty Minded, Do the Dirty...but Don't Think You're Dirty<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This is the ad that I found on my Facebook newfeed this morning. Remind me again why I would want to be compared to a large rodent? Furthermore, remind me why I want to buy a product that tells me I naturally stink?<br />
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Women have been told for centuries that they are dirty because they have bodily fluid or maybe because they bleed once a month (which I'll admit does still creep me out...but that's not the point!). Womens bodies are not dirty and neither are mens. If we stink, we need a shower not a wipe. <br />
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So...how is this for sexy? Use wipe. Wake up in the morning with a lovely yeast infection - I'm positive you are going to feel terribly sexy with the burning, the itching, the cottage-cheesy chunks. Enjoy that mental image...I gagged writing it.<br />
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I looked up some of the ingredients in this Fresh and Sexy wipe <br />
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<b>Disodium EDTA</b> - an ingredient commonly used to remove limescale...ouch?<br />
<b>Propylene Glycol</b>- "Propylene glycol is a component in newer automotive antifreezes and de-icers used at airports...glycols are good for this purpose [freezing temperature is lowered] as they are cheap, non-corrosive and have very low volatility."<br />
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I had to look up almost every single ingredient on the list because it's ALL chemicals. What happened to plain old soap and water? I'm a little creeped out with the idea of putting something like that anywhere NEAR my vajayjay! <br />
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And what about our carbon footprint? Even if these wipes are biodegradable - we have just bought into an unnecessary product that has a paper/plastic box, shipping (oil), manufacturing at the factory...and then the product gets used, dumped in a landfill or septic system where it can't biodegrade because it's under plastic bags.<br />
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Women, listen up. You're not dirty. Men, you aren't either. Have a dirty mind, do the dirty, even play dirty...but don't buy into this stupid advertisement that you ARE dirty. <br />
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And PS: Just because they give a marketing nod to men does NOT mean this product is actually marketed towards men. Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-57226025011898379442013-03-21T20:21:00.000-03:002013-03-21T23:59:19.533-03:00The Things You Learn With Family<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I've been spending a lot of time with my family lately <span style="font-size: small;">due to Gramp being in the hospita<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">l and <span style="font-size: small;">we've passed the time just talking<span style="font-size: small;">. He's told me stories about his past, the family, and just different things about the <span style="font-size: small;">Island (Grand Manan).</span></span></span> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Th<span style="font-size: small;">e things I've learned the past week have <span style="font-size: small;">been more valuable to me<span style="font-size: small;"> th<span style="font-size: small;">an the classes I've missed<span style="font-size: small;"> and <span style="font-size: small;">I hope to remember forever<span style="font-size: small;"> - so of course<span style="font-size: small;">, I'm writing it down<span style="font-size: small;">.</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Gramp has taught me about weather patterns, about<span style="font-size: small;"> fishing when he was younger, about<span style="font-size: small;"> getting alon<span style="font-size: small;">g with people and about how much of a spitfire <span style="font-size: small;">Gram <span style="font-size: small;">is. Apparently, <span style="font-size: small;">wind from the south is warmer - but<span style="font-size: small;"> that <span style="font-size: small;">doesn'<span style="font-size: small;">t mean it feels war<span style="font-size: small;">m (it's just nicer than North or East).<span style="font-size: small;"> If it's a North wind, he never wanted to go out fishing because even the fish found it to<span style="font-size: small;"> c<span style="font-size: small;">old and stayed lower.</span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">He also<span style="font-size: small;"> told <span style="font-size: small;">me about his first gu<span style="font-size: small;">n - <span style="font-size: small;">His dad got it <span style="font-size: small;">from a salvage (his words, not mine)<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">after the war.<span style="font-size: small;"> All the boys had a gun like that<span style="font-size: small;"> and <span style="font-size: small;">that's how he l<span style="font-size: small;">earned to shoot. He still has that gun and <span style="font-size: small;">it reminds him of his father, a man I never ha<span style="font-size: small;">d the oppor<span style="font-size: small;">tunity to meet but he sounded pretty interesting. </span></span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">When talking with Mom<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">, Mam and Gramp<span style="font-size: small;"> today<span style="font-size: small;">, Mom</span></span></span> told me today that <span style="font-size: small;">there used to be a <span style="font-size: small;">craft c<span style="font-size: small;">ar<span style="font-size: small;">t that went through the hosp<span style="font-size: small;">ital for peop<span style="font-size: small;">le to buy little projects to work on when they were <span style="font-size: small;">in there (which was a lovely idea). She had made a few <span style="font-size: small;">st<span style="font-size: small;">uffed animals when she was <span style="font-size: small;">pregnant with me - including a turtle :) She's trying to fin<span style="font-size: small;">d it so I can see it<span style="font-size: small;">...I'<span style="font-size: small;">m <span style="font-size: small;">con<span style="font-size: small;">vinced I peer pressured her while I was still a little <span style="font-size: small;">fetus<span style="font-size: small;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">When we walk in the hospital, first thing Mom has to do is<span style="font-size: small;"> run to the washroom<span style="font-size: small;">...beside <span style="font-size: small;">the washrooms are a small<span style="font-size: small;"> display of h<span style="font-size: small;">ospital <span style="font-size: small;">artifacts. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>Mam <span style="font-size: small;">saw a picture of the old <span style="font-size: small;">T<span style="font-size: small;">B <span style="font-size: small;">ho<span style="font-size: small;">spit<span style="font-size: small;">al in Saint John - and <span style="font-size: small;">had a<span style="font-size: small;"> very u<span style="font-size: small;">pset look on her fac<span style="font-size: small;">e when she told me that<span style="font-size: small;"> the <span style="font-size: small;">doctors thought Uncle Robert had TB when he was <span style="font-size: small;">just a little k<span style="font-size: small;">id and <span style="font-size: small;">she had to leave him there for a<span style="font-size: small;">while as a <span style="font-size: small;">child. She was NOT happy about that <span style="font-size: small;">decision<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">T<span style="font-size: small;">o<span style="font-size: small;">day</span></span> is also the first time I've ever heard anyone say that <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Mam</span> does have the early sta<span style="font-size: small;">ges of</span> <span style="font-size: small;">Alzheimer's</span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">. <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> Gramp <span style="font-size: small;">Browne (my gre<span style="font-size: small;">at-grandfather) had it and her brother <span style="font-size: small;">does as well. <span style="font-size: small;">I didn't say anything in the <span style="font-size: small;">hospital <span style="font-size: small;">but </span>it was<span style="font-size: small;">n't a <span style="font-size: small;">complete<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> suprise<span style="font-size: small;">. She's forgetful <span style="font-size: small;">over small things but still remembers the imp<span style="font-size: small;">ortant <span style="font-size: small;">stuff<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">As I was running to<span style="font-size: small;">night, it began to sink in and<span style="font-size: small;"> it's scary. I don't know what exac<span style="font-size: small;">tly to think <span style="font-size: small;">excep<span style="font-size: small;">t pray for <span style="font-size: small;">as ma<span style="font-size: small;">ny good years as possi<span style="font-size: small;">b<span style="font-size: small;">le<span style="font-size: small;">. Let her be okay because I need my gramm<span style="font-size: small;">y around for awhile longer<span style="font-size: small;"> (<span style="font-size: small;">preferably until I'm 102 years o<span style="font-size: small;">ld)<span style="font-size: small;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So as I write, I<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">laugh at some stories and I start crying writing down others. It<span style="font-size: small;">'s <span style="font-size: small;">scary to think of my grandparents as 'old' be<span style="font-size: small;">cause in my mind, they aren't...<span style="font-size: small;">so I<span style="font-size: small;">'ll just keep writing and remembering and thinking <span style="font-size: small;">p<span style="font-size: small;">ositively<span style="font-size: small;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Cheers!</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-68827166692077781072013-03-19T23:57:00.001-03:002013-03-19T23:57:17.295-03:00Steubenville revisited<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;">If you saw my ea<span style="font-size: large;">rlier post about Steubenville, most of you will assume I was<span style="font-size: large;"> confused. I had a lot <span style="font-size: large;">running around in my mind</span> but cou<span style="font-size: large;">ldn't really put it togethe<span style="font-size: large;">r in words<span style="font-size: large;">.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">H<span style="font-size: large;">enry Rollin's post<span style="font-size: large;"> (</span></span>Click here) <span style="font-size: large;">was amazin<span style="font-size: large;">g. This is<span style="font-size: large;"> exactly what has been going through my mind<span style="font-size: large;">. I could have cried reading it because it<span style="font-size: large;"> was just "yes, yes, yes, I agree!" </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I en<span style="font-size: large;">courage you to read it<span style="font-size: large;"> and leave feedback<span style="font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Sincerely,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Sammy </span></span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-62634190205707451412013-03-19T22:54:00.002-03:002013-03-25T09:41:09.789-03:00Recipe Time<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;">Swe<span style="font-size: large;">et<span style="font-size: large;"> 'n' Sour Chili </span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">1<span style="font-size: large;">/2 p<span style="font-size: large;">kg <span style="font-size: large;">firm tofu (<span style="font-size: large;">I usually <span style="font-size: large;">leave it out all afternoon o<span style="font-size: large;">n <span style="font-size: large;">paper tow<span style="font-size: large;">el to <span style="font-size: large;">drain it)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">1 can whole tomato<span style="font-size: large;">es (drained)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">1 <span style="font-size: large;">medium onion</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Garlic (as much as you like)</span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">small can <span style="font-size: large;">of</span> pinea<span style="font-size: large;">pple</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">E<span style="font-size: large;">VOO (extra virgin olive oil) - <span style="font-size: large;">1 s<span style="font-size: large;">w<span style="font-size: large;">irl around the pan</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> </div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">V<span style="font-size: large;">eggies (whatever you want)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Any spices you may like <span style="font-size: large;">(I use Mrs. Dash and pepper<span style="font-size: large;"> but basil, oregano, <span style="font-size: large;">chili<span style="font-size: large;">'s, <span style="font-size: large;">curry - wha<span style="font-size: large;">tever you<span style="font-size: large;"> enjoy <span style="font-size: large;">would work).</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Instructions</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">1) Th<span style="font-size: large;">row tofu in pot and smoo<span style="font-size: large;">sh it. <span style="font-size: large;">Crank it up on high<span style="font-size: large;"> until it sizzles<span style="font-size: large;"> th<span style="font-size: large;">an <span style="font-size: large;">lower <span style="font-size: large;">the heat.<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">2) Add EVOO to <span style="font-size: large;">large frying pa<span style="font-size: large;">n. Add chopped onion<span style="font-size: large;"> and garlic.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">3<span style="font-size: large;">) <span style="font-size: large;">When onions are soft, add a sp<span style="font-size: large;">lash of vinegar and pi<span style="font-size: large;">neapple juice. Taste it. Do you like it?<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"> Balance out your f<span style="font-size: large;">lavours here - I usually go <span style="font-size: large;">half and half.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">6)<span style="font-size: large;"> When this is hot, start adding tomato<span style="font-size: large;">es to the mix. Stir<span style="font-size: large;"> it up.</span> Keep watching the <span style="font-size: large;">tofu <span style="font-size: large;">that is simmering <span style="font-size: large;">away.<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> </div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">7)<span style="font-size: large;"> When tom<span style="font-size: large;">ato<span style="font-size: large;">es are hot, add to the tofu. <span style="font-size: large;">Stir it around and turn up the <span style="font-size: large;">h<span style="font-size: large;">eat. It shouldn't boil but it should be simmering.<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"> When it's hot, serve it up.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Okay - so my recipes are definitely ad-lib. Don't <span style="font-size: large;">feel <span style="font-size: large;">like you NEED to ad<span style="font-size: large;">d garlic if you hate it - want<span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">more pineapple? Add more<span style="font-size: large;">! Have fun with it and keep taste testing - <span style="font-size: large;">for your flavour. Usually I use hot peppers until my friend's eyes are<span style="font-size: large;"> <span style="font-size: large;">watering<span style="font-size: large;">...I'm perfectly fin<span style="font-size: large;">e. This <span style="font-size: large;">time, since it's for gramp<span style="font-size: large;">, I left the hot stuff out. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Cheers! </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"></span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-70742091130678970882013-03-19T20:30:00.002-03:002013-03-19T20:30:52.208-03:00I don't feel like Running<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I don't feel like running<span style="font-size: large;"> today. W<span style="font-size: large;">ell<span style="font-size: large;">, I don't. I know I'll feel better.<span style="font-size: large;">..I know the <span style="font-size: large;">ache<span style="font-size: large;"> isn't reall<span style="font-size: large;">y pain. My <span style="font-size: large;">hangnail doesn't count as an excuse. My shoes aren't we<span style="font-size: large;">t - it's not snowing.<span style="font-size: large;"> But I <span style="font-size: large;">don't feel like it.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">So I'l<span style="font-size: large;">l ju<span style="font-size: large;">st put on my <span style="font-size: large;">running clothes<span style="font-size: large;">. I won't go...I'll just see how <span style="font-size: large;">I feel in my s<span style="font-size: large;">weats. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Well, <span style="font-size: large;">maybe just a quick w<span style="font-size: large;">al<span style="font-size: large;">k do<span style="font-size: large;">wn the block and back. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Maybe just a mile...</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Maybe <span style="font-size: large;">another.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I guess I felt like running today...</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-11381097800705028952013-03-19T20:19:00.002-03:002013-03-19T20:25:02.829-03:00My chats with my Grampy<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;">Over the past few days, I've had the opp<span style="font-size: large;">ortunity to s<span style="font-size: large;">pend a lot of time with my gra<span style="font-size: large;">nd<span style="font-size: large;">father.<span style="font-size: large;"> E<span style="font-size: large;">ven with the stress, it's been a<span style="font-size: large;"> blessing to have that <span style="font-size: large;">time with him<span style="font-size: large;">.<span style="font-size: large;"> W<span style="font-size: large;">e've had some gr<span style="font-size: large;">eat talks about different things<span style="font-size: large;"> and he<span style="font-size: large;">re<span style="font-size: large;"> are some things I've pick<span style="font-size: large;">ed up on<span style="font-size: large;">:</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">-Love i<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">sn't </span>about expression, it<span style="font-size: large;">'s <span style="font-size: large;">visible in<span style="font-size: large;"> a person<span style="font-size: large;">'s fac<span style="font-size: large;">e. Gramp looks at <span style="font-size: large;">Gram<span style="font-size: large;"> like she <span style="font-size: large;">is the most beautiful, valua<span style="font-size: large;">ble<span style="font-size: large;">, wonderful woman in the entire world. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">-<span style="font-size: large;">Justin <span style="font-size: large;">Be<span style="font-size: large;">iber is young and <span style="font-size: large;">is making too much money. Stop worshiping these<span style="font-size: large;"> kids - it's not healthy on<span style="font-size: large;"> them...or on the people<span style="font-size: large;"> who are idolizin<span style="font-size: large;">g their hero<span style="font-size: large;">es<span style="font-size: large;">!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">-H<span style="font-size: large;">is faith isn't a part of him<span style="font-size: large;">, it is him. He told me <span style="font-size: large;">if I<span style="font-size: large;"> cry wh<span style="font-size: large;">en he dies<span style="font-size: large;"> it will be because<span style="font-size: large;"> I miss him<span style="font-size: large;"> but he'll be<span style="font-size: large;"> in a better place<span style="font-size: large;"> (because <span style="font-size: large;">THAT made me feel better).</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">-H<span style="font-size: large;">e is happy because he is content with <span style="font-size: large;">what he has</span>. <span style="font-size: large;">He <span style="font-size: large;">doesn't want <span style="font-size: large;">mor<span style="font-size: large;">e 'stuff'</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #351c75;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">-He's proud of me and love<span style="font-size: large;">s me unconditionally. I might not be a parent...but I wouldn't mind a gra<span style="font-size: large;">ndkid some<span style="font-size: large;">day :) </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-26182052720574949442013-03-18T22:46:00.001-03:002013-03-18T22:47:20.449-03:00That Stupid Voice<span style="font-size: small;">I heard that voice again tonight - it was the same one I heard constantly two years ago. It was just a whisper in the back of my head that told me if I just stop eating, Bamp will get better...figure that one out.<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">I know logically <span style="font-size: small;">this is a lie - it<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">is physically impossible.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I know it<span style="font-size: small;">'s my <span style="font-size: small;">mind's way of copi<span style="font-size: small;">ng with stress - it<span style="font-size: small;">'s e<span style="font-size: small;">asier to f<span style="font-size: small;">ocus on <span style="font-size: small;">being hungry<span style="font-size: small;">, on losing weight, on <span style="font-size: small;">obsessing with every calorie than it is to be afraid or <span style="font-size: small;">cry <span style="font-size: small;">every time <span style="font-size: small;">I'm</span> alone. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I know I can't listen <span style="font-size: small;">to that voice. I can't give in for a second<span style="font-size: small;"> or else I'm going to be sick again. My body will be sore, I'll be full <span style="font-size: small;">of bruises and I'll have my fingers down my <span style="font-size: small;">throat once again.<span style="font-size: small;"> I don't need to go back to that p<span style="font-size: small;">lace <span style="font-size: small;">again - it was hard enoug<span style="font-size: small;">h to crawl out of the first two times around.<span style="font-size: small;"> So I'm going to go<span style="font-size: small;"> get a sho<span style="font-size: small;">wer...then I'm going <span style="font-size: small;">to drink some juice<span style="font-size: small;"> and eat a spoonful of peanut butter.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Welcome to the <span style="font-size: small;">w<span style="font-size: small;">orld of<span style="font-size: small;"> anxiety...it manifests i<span style="font-size: small;">t<span style="font-size: small;">self in so many <span style="font-size: small;">ways but none of them are healthy. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span> </span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-49043399710446720832013-03-18T21:01:00.000-03:002013-03-18T21:02:04.302-03:00Break-Down<span style="font-size: large;">You know that moment - when you think "I'm not going to <span style="font-size: large;">cry"...and then you just lose it and start <span style="font-size: large;">sobbing?<span style="font-size: large;"> Well, just had another one of those. I'm <span style="font-size: large;">doubling up the layers again and am actually going for a<span style="font-size: large;"> run - Hopefully, I can clear<span style="font-size: large;"> my mind and just <span style="font-size: large;">calm down.<span style="font-size: large;"> </span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-58344820459864558672013-03-18T18:46:00.002-03:002013-03-18T18:46:28.529-03:00Pro-Rapist? Pro-Youth? Definitely conflicted. <span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;">'ve been (loosely) following the S<span style="font-size: small;">teubenville<span style="font-size: small;"> trials of two young men aged 16<span style="font-size: small;"> an<span style="font-size: small;">d 17<span style="font-size: small;">. Now, I am not a fan of <span style="font-size: small;">focusing the media's atte<span style="font-size: small;">ntion <span style="font-size: small;">on </span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">the guilty.<span style="font-size: small;"> However, having dealt with being ass<span style="font-size: small;">aulted before<span style="font-size: small;">, I <span style="font-size: small;">would <span style="font-size: small;">feel terrible if I had been targeted by the media. So what do you do<span style="font-size: small;"> to be fair<span style="font-size: small;"> - you focus on the guilty because if you hurt the<span style="font-size: small;">m, it's not a<span style="font-size: small;">s bad.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Think about it for a second: you're a <span style="font-size: small;">young <span style="font-size: small;">woman</span>.<span style="font-size: small;"> You've been <span style="font-size: small;">raped. Not assaulted, not molested - you've been raped.<span style="font-size: small;"> You <span style="font-size: small;">didn't ha<span style="font-size: small;">ve sex <span style="font-size: small;">with s<span style="font-size: small;">omeone - they forced themsel<span style="font-size: small;">ves on you. Not one, but two <span style="font-size: small;">men. Now <span style="font-size: small;">you are</span> all over the news<span style="font-size: small;"> with cameras flashing around you, people screaming at you for an <span style="font-size: small;">answer<span style="font-size: small;"> asking you how you feel???</span></span></span> That doesn't seem right. This is the mo<span style="font-size: small;">st intimate<span style="font-size: small;"> act <span style="font-size: small;">ripped away from your control<span style="font-size: small;"> a<span style="font-size: small;">nd <span style="font-size: small;">you're being sensationalized<span style="font-size: small;">...that doesn't seem quite right<span style="font-size: small;">, does it? So we leave the victim alone<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">...<span style="font-size: small;">and we report on the guilty.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Here's my probl<span style="font-size: small;">em<span style="font-size: small;"> with everything. I feel bad<span style="font-size: small;">ly for the boys too. I don't feel badly that they are going to jail - personally, I think they deserve to be there longer. I <span style="font-size: small;">don't feel badly <span style="font-size: small;">that they were caught - they did it. I don't feel badly that everyone <span style="font-size: small;">is <span style="font-size: small;">going to know <span style="font-size: small;">they raped this girl - <span style="font-size: small;">They. Did. It. I feel badly because when I look at p<span style="font-size: small;">ictures of them, I see <span style="font-size: small;">two <span style="font-size: small;">boys w<span style="font-size: small;">ho were <span style="font-size: small;">being stupid and cruel and probably egging each other on. I see two boys who<span style="font-size: small;">s<span style="font-size: small;">e par<span style="font-size: small;">ents let them stay out<span style="font-size: small;">, who<span style="font-size: small;"> probably weren't worried about coming home s<span style="font-size: small;">melling like booze, wh<span style="font-size: small;">o were raised <span style="font-size: small;">up on <span style="font-size: small;">ped<span style="font-size: small;">est<span style="font-size: small;">als because they could throw a d<span style="font-size: small;">arn football.<span style="font-size: small;"> I see t<span style="font-size: small;">wo young boys who<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">are <span style="font-size: small;">probably going to be<span style="font-size: small;">come products o<span style="font-size: small;">f the jail system. <span style="font-size: small;">Statistically, they will commit another <span style="font-size: small;">crime, go to jail again<span style="font-size: small;">. They will never<span style="font-size: small;"> live<span style="font-size: small;"> a normal life (nor should they) but they<span style="font-size: small;"> have destroyed their lives at<span style="font-size: small;"> such a young age that yes, I feel bad. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I'm <span style="font-size: small;">have been extremely conflicted over feeling bad because...well...you're <span style="font-size: small;">supposed to hate rap<span style="font-size: small;">ists not feel bad for them.<span style="font-size: small;"> I hate their actions, I hate their<span style="font-size: small;"> nonchalant attitude about it at first, I hate that they <span style="font-size: small;">have hurt (I refuse to use the wor<span style="font-size: small;">d destroy bec<span style="font-size: small;">ause <span style="font-size: small;">that <span style="font-size: small;">give<span style="font-size: small;">s too much power to the rapi<span style="font-size: small;">sts)<span style="font-size: small;"> an innocent girl. But rape is about power - were they really<span style="font-size: small;"> trying to be powerful? Or were they being stupid teens?<span style="font-size: small;"> My g<span style="font-size: small;">uess is they were being stupid <span style="font-size: small;">teenage<span style="font-size: small;">rs and they went WAY to<span style="font-size: small;"> far. They deserve to be punished<span style="font-size: small;"> and y<span style="font-size: small;">es this will hau<span style="font-size: small;">nt them (as it should) but can I completely harden my heart and say I don't feel badly for them<span style="font-size: small;">? <span style="font-size: small;">No I can't. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;"> don't b<span style="font-size: small;">lame the parents <span style="font-size: small;">either <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">-</span> it was their chi<span style="font-size: small;">ldren<span style="font-size: small;">s</span></span> decision<span style="font-size: small;">, not the<span style="font-size: small;">irs...<span style="font-size: small;">but <span style="font-size: small;">I also know how many times I could have gotten in a LOT more trouble because of crap I did when I was younger<span style="font-size: small;"> had<span style="font-size: small;"> my parents <span style="font-size: small;">n<span style="font-size: small;">ot cared enough to ask questions,<span style="font-size: small;"> make sure I<span style="font-size: small;"> got home at a decent hour and<span style="font-size: small;"> punish<span style="font-size: small;">ed me w<span style="font-size: small;">he<span style="font-size: small;">n I broke rules</span></span>. Young people are sometimes r<span style="font-size: small;">eally stupid. That's why we have parents!<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">(</span>If the co<span style="font-size: small;">aches knew about it though and <span style="font-size: small;">said nothing, I blame them and hope they <span style="font-size: small;">rot in jai<span style="font-size: small;">l.)</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Before I get blasted with "you're <span style="font-size: small;">pro<span style="font-size: small;">-rapists", I promise I'm not. H<span style="font-size: small;">aving been as<span style="font-size: small;">saulted, I <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">am even more conflicted as to why I feel badly. The only way I can say it is I feel badly that they are so young<span style="font-size: small;">, that th<span style="font-size: small;">ey chose to make those decisions that affected their lives forever.</span></span> <span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Th<span style="font-size: small;">ere is no other outcome for <span style="font-size: small;">these young men - they were wrong, they were c<span style="font-size: small;">aught<span style="font-size: small;">, they are going to juvie, they deserve it (and probably more).<span style="font-size: small;"> I <span style="font-size: small;">hope they<span style="font-size: small;"> will <span style="font-size: small;">learn to be res<span style="font-size: small;">ponsib<span style="font-size: small;">le young men while in jail but that's a hard <span style="font-size: small;">sell.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">When<span style="font-size: small;">ever a young life is destr<span style="font-size: small;">oyed<span style="font-size: small;"> - even if it is by the<span style="font-size: small;">ir own hand - there is a place for <span style="font-size: small;">empathy. That being said, there are lines that need to be drawn<span style="font-size: small;"> between <span style="font-size: small;">feeling bad and <span style="font-size: small;">being sorry it happened. I am not sorry they were arrested<span style="font-size: small;">. I am sorry they did it in the first place and hurt a young woman<span style="font-size: small;">. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">And still, I am conflicted<span style="font-size: small;"> abo<span style="font-size: small;">ut feeling bad - sometimes writing it out doesn't s<span style="font-size: small;">ort out</span> every feeling. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Feel free<span style="font-size: small;"> to post your <span style="font-size: small;">opinions on this. <span style="font-size: small;">Did you watch the <span style="font-size: small;">video<span style="font-size: small;"> of t<span style="font-size: small;">heir sentencing</span> and if so, how did you 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<span style="color: #4c1130;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;">To say I ha<span style="font-size: small;">ven't been thinking straight i<span style="font-size: small;">s an <span style="font-size: small;">understat<span style="font-size: small;">ement - I haven't been thinking at all lately.<span style="font-size: small;"> Last night was just a low point and so I called a frie<span style="font-size: small;">nd - I just wanted someone there to talk to and keep me from crying.<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Unfortunately, thi<span style="font-size: small;">s friend was my ex-boyfriend and he was una<span style="font-size: small;">v<span style="font-size: small;">ailable so I said I<span style="font-size: small;"> had a backup - not thinking anything of it<span style="font-size: small;"> (again, not thinking at all). We've <span style="font-size: small;">been<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">apart for about <span style="font-size: small;">two months now<span style="font-size: small;">(ish) and I figured he <span style="font-size: small;">had moved on...apparently<span style="font-size: small;"> not.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">He g<span style="font-size: small;">o<span style="font-size: small;">t upset and I tried to explain that I was just<span style="font-size: small;"> tired and scared<span style="font-size: small;"> and nee<span style="font-size: small;">ded someone ther<span style="font-size: small;">e (and apologized for <span style="font-size: small;">forgetting that it's all about him). </span></span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">I get the third d<span style="font-size: small;">egree about why I waited to text (it was 11pm - n<span style="font-size: small;">ot late by university standards<span style="font-size: small;"> and I was running).<span style="font-size: small;"> Then I go<span style="font-size: small;">t a text saying<span style="font-size: small;">: </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Maybe <span style="font-size: small;">we just shouldn't be friends"...<span style="font-size: small;">that was a cheap shot to say the least.<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">After I got over the initial "You're a jerk" feeling<span style="font-size: small;">, I got angry. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Part <span style="font-size: small;">of this was <span style="font-size: small;">lack of sleep, <span style="font-size: small;">part of it <span style="font-size: small;">is stress, part<span style="font-size: small;"> of it is justified<span style="font-size: small;">. <span style="font-size: small;">My response was "wow.<span style="font-size: small;">..</span>That's just so <span style="font-size: small;">unbelievably</span> hurtful and self<span style="font-size: small;">ish and cruel"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>. He was sorry that I was <span style="font-size: small;">curling up with someone else (Which btw, I use <span style="font-size: small;">curling up for guys and girls<span style="font-size: small;">...and treat them appro<span style="font-size: small;">xi<span style="font-size: small;">mately the same way).</span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Anyways, I <span style="font-size: small;">MAY have overreacted here and called him a selfish little boy.<span style="font-size: small;">..and then said "No wonder you are alone - no j<span style="font-size: small;">ob<span style="font-size: small;">, weight loss, or anything<span style="font-size: small;"> [you do]</span> will ever combat that pett<span style="font-size: small;">y pat<span style="font-size: small;">hetic, immature, attitude and btw,<span style="font-size: small;"> he [friend] came over for a mov<span style="font-size: small;">ie and left. Worst thing he did was give me a hug w<span style="font-size: small;">hen I cried<span style="font-size: small;">"...and <span style="font-size: small;">said <span style="font-size: small;">"</span>I wish I had never dated <span style="font-size: small;">you." <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Yep, </span>I went for the kill shot. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Looking back on it, I w<span style="font-size: small;">ent too far. I became cruel and angry<span style="font-size: small;">, two characteristics that I try to keep to a minimum. I was upset<span style="font-size: small;"> with him an<span style="font-size: small;">d I <span style="font-size: small;">las<span style="font-size: small;">hed out instead of holding back and waiting for him to settle down. Was I justified in being angry<span style="font-size: small;">? <span style="font-size: small;">Definitely. I didn't need the <span style="font-size: small;">third degree nor did I need his<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">stupid <span style="font-size: small;">"feel bad for me" attitude.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">If he didn't want to be friends, a phone call could help. Or perhaps, I dunno -<span style="font-size: small;"> not saying it until AFTE<span style="font-size: small;">R he knew my grandfather was better<span style="font-size: small;">. <span style="font-size: small;">Honestly, with friends like that <span style="font-size: small;">who needs ene<span style="font-size: small;">mies<span style="font-size: small;">? </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So now what<span style="font-size: small;">? I said <span style="font-size: small;">I'd call when I was free and we'd sort this <span style="font-size: small;">out. At very least, I want<span style="font-size: small;"> him to know I<span style="font-size: small;"> am not impressed and<span style="font-size: small;"> he <span style="font-size: small;">doesn't get to pull melodra<span style="font-size: small;">matic crap when he's <span style="font-size: small;">upset. Sometimes he needs to think ab<span style="font-size: small;">out other people and not <span style="font-size: small;">be a jerk.<span style="font-size: small;"> And sometimes, he needs to just call instead of text. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Honestly, <span style="font-size: small;">he's <span style="font-size: small;">28 years old. <span style="font-size: small;">I<span style="font-size: small;">t's time to stop making <span style="font-size: small;">peop<span style="font-size: small;">le feel bad because <span style="font-size: small;">he's upset. So as I s<span style="font-size: small;">it here<span style="font-size: small;"> thinking "This was a stupid argument<span style="font-size: small;"> but it happens all th<span style="font-size: small;">e</span> time"<span style="font-size: small;">, I'l<span style="font-size: small;">l t<span style="font-size: small;">alk to him rationall<span style="font-size: small;">y tonight and<span style="font-size: small;"> prob<span style="font-size: small;">ably tell him <span style="font-size: small;">he</span>'s right<span style="font-size: small;"> because I don't <span style="font-size: small;">need this sort of drama in my life. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> <br />
<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-53031576892316254442013-03-18T17:43:00.000-03:002013-03-18T17:43:22.664-03:00Fear of the Unknown <span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;">As I sit here writing, I don't even really know where to begin. Gramp is doing well but he has two high-risk <span style="font-size: small;">blockages in the back of h<span style="font-size: small;">is heart. He keeps saying <span style="font-size: small;">he's ready to go to the Lord if it<span style="font-size: small;">'s h<span style="font-size: small;">is time - but I'm being selfish and really don't want it to be his time. <span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Grampy has <span style="font-size: small;">alwa<span style="font-size: small;">ys been <span style="font-size: small;">actively involved in my life - <span style="font-size: small;">part of that is because <span style="font-size: small;">I lived <span style="font-size: small;">with them before Mom got married. <span style="font-size: small;">I called every single evening for years <span style="font-size: small;">just before bed to say goodnight. Part of it's because I <span style="font-size: small;">have always respected him<span style="font-size: small;"> (even in my terrible teenage<span style="font-size: small;"> years)<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;"> Ma<span style="font-size: small;">m and Bamp have always loved me unconditionally and I knew that<span style="font-size: small;">. They are<span style="font-size: small;"> my role mode<span style="font-size: small;">ls<span style="font-size: small;"> on <span style="font-size: small;">how to live <span style="font-size: small;">life (I've got that one down), <span style="font-size: small;">how to show unconditional love (<span style="font-size: small;">I'm learni<span style="font-size: small;">ng) a<span style="font-size: small;">nd how <span style="font-size: small;">to have a great marriage (<span style="font-size: small;">failed epically the first time but I'll get there some<span style="font-size: small;">day).<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> They truly are the most amazing people I have ever me<span style="font-size: small;">t<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">so <span style="font-size: small;">to think of imagining my life without <span style="font-size: small;">either of the<span style="font-size: small;">m - okay I just choked up again.<span style="font-size: small;"> I've be<span style="font-size: small;">en unbelievably blessed to have them in my life for 2<span style="font-size: small;">6 years<span style="font-size: small;"> so how do I<span style="font-size: small;"> even be<span style="font-size: small;">gin to see<span style="font-size: small;"> my life without <span style="font-size: small;">one of them?<span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Back to positive thinking - if the stress test goes well and he passes it<span style="font-size: small;">, he'll be okay and not need the surgery. <span style="font-size: small;">That's what I'm hoping and praying for right now. I've got to keep thinking about the good things<span style="font-size: small;"> and keep doing whatever I can to help out<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;"> I just need to keep busy and sto<span style="font-size: small;">p tearing up all the time.<span style="font-size: small;"> I'm doing everything I can and I'll continue to do that<span style="font-size: small;">. Thankfully, this blog tends to <span style="font-size: small;">keep <span style="font-size: small;">me grounded<span style="font-size: small;">. I c<span style="font-size: small;">an look at m<span style="font-size: small;">y <span style="font-size: small;">writing<span style="font-size: small;"> and <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">figure out th<span style="font-size: small;">e voice in my head that <span style="font-size: small;">keeps re<span style="font-size: small;">pea<span style="font-size: small;">ting: </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span>"Sam, you're scared, terrified even<span style="font-size: small;">. Your grandparents have always been there <span style="font-size: small;">and you're not ready to not have them there. That being said, the doctors are amazing, gramp is strong, and he<span style="font-size: small;"> is calm about this<span style="font-size: small;">. Chances are, he will be okay and no, that doesn't make you feel better but you need to<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">keep studying (even if you aren't going to class at the moment) and you need to pray things will work out<span style="font-size: small;">. Keep eating healthy, go for a run, take Gramp a s<span style="font-size: small;">alad tomorrow <span style="font-size: small;">and <span style="font-size: small;">a Tim's coffee<span style="font-size: small;">. You need to <span style="font-size: small;">do <span style="font-size: small;">your home<span style="font-size: small;">w<span style="font-size: small;">o<span style="font-size: small;">rk and <span style="font-size: small;">go to class if you can - <span style="font-size: small;">whatever happens, he's okay with it<span style="font-size: small;">...<span style="font-size: small;">You're not.<span style="font-size: small;"> You can't change the outcome t<span style="font-size: small;">h<span style="font-size: small;">ough and if you're stressed, you're not able to help as much as you would like<span style="font-size: small;">. Stay positi<span style="font-size: small;">ve and don't let yourself get mired in d<span style="font-size: small;">espair<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;">"</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sincerely, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">Sammy </span> </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span> Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-42170744739769080812013-03-17T01:13:00.005-03:002013-03-17T01:13:50.658-03:00Stress, running and penguins I started writing a blog earlier this afternoon about stress - and couldn't think of anything to put on paper. Stress affects me physically - migraines, tension in my neck, stomach aches, throwing up, my digestive system goes completely out of order...I'm starving but I can't force myself to eat. I forget to drink water...combine that with allergies and gluten intolerance - not a fun time. This is my first time in a high stress situation and I can't turn to pizza or Oreos. <br />
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So I did what every gluten, dairy free foodie does - I made coconut milk cocoa ice cream...and then I ate it. All of it. It was good. I hadn't really eaten much the past two days so my sugars and energy have plummeted. Combine that with adding more miles to my workouts and more workouts throughout the week, this afternoon was a complete mess physically. The ice cream gave me a boost (it's made to be healthier but still isn't 'good' for me) but I was still just drained emotionally and physically.<br />
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I decided to go for a walk. I didn't feel like it. My tummy was upset. I could wind up throwing up again. My body hurts. So what? I recognized this as stress and told myself I was going...and so I did. Even if it was just for 5 minutes, I was going for a walk. The night was clear, the stars were twinkling and I could smell the beginning of spring in the air. <br />
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1 hour 17 minutes later, with a distance of 5.17 miles (4 miles per hour), burning 540 calories and over 8500 steps taken (If you have an Android, Cardio Trainer is an amazing free app), I was home again. <br />
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During my walk, I did a long run - long enough to get in a runner's groove where it was just me and my thoughts. I started thinking about stress. I've been stressing because I want to be able to fix my grampy - I am a person who fixes things...but I can't. While running, I accepted that my job, my way of fixing things is to be there for him, to provide him with company, to bring him his small, black coffee in a Roll Up the Rim to Win cup, to anticipate that his hospital food will suck and bring him fresh fruit and veggies. I will continue to update the family on how he is doing and tomorrow, I will make sure he has a moment to speak with his wife (they won't give him a phone where he's on the cardiac floor).<br />
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I also realized that I need to accept that while I do have choices in my life, I seem to be set on a path for something. After I left Justin, things started going well. It wasn't anything I did though. To be honest, I'm sort of surprised I'm not either dead or totally messed up from the summer I left him. I did a lot of things to hurt myself thinking it would make me feel better. It didn't - I was broken but I'm patched up now. There's still scars and sometimes I need to reinforce a wound but I'm stronger now. <br />
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There are things that happen in my life that could be chalked up to luck - someone calling when I need them the most, meeting Dana and being friends with her, falling for a friend I shouldn't have fallen for but realizing I can fall in love again (just not right now), learning to reach out to others when I need them, that person who reaches out at just the right time...little things that just happen every so often that make me step back and think that this is so far beyond my doing...My grandparents have always told me that I am on a path and I think they're right. When I'm supposed to be doing something, doors open - kind of scarily easy. When I'm not, well...everything goes wrong. Call it fate, karma, kizmit, destiny...I call it a path. I don't know why yet - but I have a feeling it has something to do with going up north. We'll see. It's starting with Guatemala though. I have faith in this.<br />
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Finally, I realized that I needed to cry. I needed to get it out of my system and just cry...so I did....as I was running. I didn't realize I was actually crying at first but I did. I cried because I was scared I would lose my grampy, I cried because I was tired of being scared and stressed, I cried because I knew I could handle this and finally, I felt centered again. My stomach stopped hurting, my brain stopped randomly going through thoughts - I just felt better. <br />
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So Blog-World, I don't recommend running to everyone but when you're stressed, do something healthy for you. Go for a walk, step outside and look at the sky for awhile...I am only one person. I can make a difference, I can change the world - but I can't do that if my entire being is focused on my worry. <br />
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Take care everyone - tomorrows blog is about the goodness of people :D <br />
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PS: I'm sorry to inform you that there actually is no penguins in this blog. Happy St. Patrick's Day! Samanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15980962206353248214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2901401979485547425.post-20775257169234450242013-03-15T23:47:00.000-03:002013-03-15T23:47:12.162-03:00Tears, cheers, highs and lowsToday has been a day I'll never forget in so many ways. I don't really know how to start this blog because it's been so weird - the best and worst of days mixed all together. So here goes in point form:<br />
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1) My grampy was flown from Grand Manan today with chest pains. He's already had one heart attack and stroke so this brought back a lot of fear and anxiety. I've been trying to remain positive but when I get scared, I just start focusing on the worst, the "what ifs?" To say I'm terrified is an understatement but I refuse to dwell on the scary. I'm trying to remain positive and just remember that I have a very blessed family.<br />
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I looked down at my phone by accident - I never have it out in class - and saw it was ringing on a break. I answered it (I promised to be available to a cousin who was in the hospital if she needed me) and mom had called to tell me about Bamp. I had the time to get him some groceries (and a balloon...and a plant...). D<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">.M</span></span> (one of my best friends ever - we fight like sisters so she's family) is in the class with me and left too with almost no explanation as to what was happening. It could have been so much worse but thank goodness for friends and family. Mom, Dad, Mam, Aunty and Uncle all came up to see him - it was good to see the family come together for him.<br />
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2) I have been given the honour of being given a Grad Class Leadership Award. This is the 8th year for it and it's amazing. I teared up hearing it because this university has been my home - sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it but I always feel like I'm home. It's a pretty nice feeling. <br />
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3) Gordon Ramsay retweeted me and followed me on Twitter! That was pretty amazing!!!</div>
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4) My favorite part of the day was that the invitation included thi<span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: Calibri,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">s: </span> </span></span> </div>
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a significant impact on your time at UNB Saint John. It could be a</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Calibri,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;"><u> </u></span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Calibri,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span lang="en" style="font-size: 11pt; font-weight: normal;">faculty
member, academic adviser, mentor or coach.</span></span><span style="color: black; font-family: Arial,sans-serif;"><span lang="en" style="font-weight: normal;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Calibri,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">This
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accomplishments. Please forward the name of your campus guest to me as
soon as possible so they can be invited well in advance of the event"</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Consolas; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 10.5pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;"> <span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I <span style="font-size: small;">was so happy to s<span style="font-size: small;">ee this because there has been on<span style="font-size: small;">e prof in particular<span style="font-size: small;"> who really impacted me in my first year and has a<span style="font-size: small;">lways been there for me since. So I asked her to come and she <span style="font-size: small;">was <span style="font-size: small;">honour<span style="font-size: small;">ed to accept.<span style="font-size: small;"> I<span style="font-size: small;">n my first year of school, I fel<span style="font-size: small;">t like an absolute<span style="font-size: small;"> idiot. I<span style="font-size: small;">n my first term, I was actually scared that someone was going to walk up to me and tell me I was a mistake<span style="font-size: small;">, I wasn't really suppo<span style="font-size: small;">sed to be there.<span style="font-size: small;"> I <span style="font-size: small;">did a lot of things that should have made me fail beca<span style="font-size: small;">use I expected the worst<span style="font-size: small;">.<span style="font-size: small;"> This prof had faith in me <span style="font-size: small;">an<span style="font-size: small;">d told me I was smart. She <span style="font-size: small;">is an absolute spitfire and made me want to learn about social issues <span style="font-size: small;">so I could make a difference<span style="font-size: small;"> in the w<span style="font-size: small;">orld<span style="font-size: small;"> som<span style="font-size: small;">eday. Whenever I didn't have faith in myself, I knew there was someone else who had faith in me<span style="font-size: small;">, who made me feel passionate about<span style="font-size: small;"> social inequality and <span style="font-size: small;">in doing that, I was able to look past my own issues <span style="font-size: small;">(and there were a LOT of them) to help other peop<span style="font-size: small;">le. Over time, my issues weren't as scary...I had self<span style="font-size: small;">-con<span style="font-size: small;">fidence agai<span style="font-size: small;">n. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Consolas; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 10.5pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri,sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 11pt;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-size: small;">So if anyone rea<span style="font-size: small;">ds this, send a quick <span style="font-size: small;">prayer for my Gra<span style="font-size: small;">ndfather. He<span style="font-size: small;">'s always put other people ahead of himself - even in the hospital<span style="font-size: small;">, he was asking mam to find a<span style="font-size: small;"> <span style="font-size: small;">B<span style="font-size: small;">ible for someone <span style="font-size: small;">who had asked for one. <span style="font-size: small;">Even <span style="font-size: small;">when I was a<span style="font-size: small;">n absolute bratty teen, I admired and respected him...and I still do. He's always shown me unconditional l<span style="font-size: small;">ove - and <span style="font-size: small;">he's my grampy. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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